31 weeks and counting!- Revised

Thirty one weeks and counting down. It seems crazy that I have only 9 weeks left and only 6 more weeks until I am full term. Where did the time go?! I guess feeling this way is a good thing. Being well into my third trimester, I have been experiencing the normal things that accompany pregnancy about this time....hard time sleeping, braxton hicks, back pain, contractions, swelling when I cross my legs throughout the day, trouble bending over to tie my shoes, cravings (McFlurries) which I am happy to announce that I have only had two okay maybe three in my whole pregnancy, ect. I also try to keep up with exercising...I walk a few miles once a week at the BYU indoor track and do an hour of palates a few times a week. Palates gets harder and harder the bigger I get, but I try as hard as I can to reach for those toes. Although these things are part of being pregnant, I love it. I am afraid I am going to miss being pregnant. I love feeling my little girl kick, prod, poke and feel arms and legs moving across my belly. And I love that when I am in a hot bath she wakes up and splashed around with/ in her mommy's tummy. :)

We are getting closer and closer to having the baby's room ready. Just a few touches and it will be set for baby Wilhite to join the family. Although the realization of having a new baby comes to mind more and more often, it makes me so excited to hold our little girl and to finally see what we have created and to feel her sweet spirit come into our home. It seems crazy to me sometimes that we will actually have a baby of our own soon. The other night Justin and I slept in and had a really relaxing day and we talked later that night about how things were going to change, but I think it will be one of those changes you wouldn't change for anything. I have been wanting to be a mom for such a long time and we have been blessed with this little, healthy spirit and that is such a huge blessing. I will never take pregnancies or babies for granted and if I do, I hope someone gives me a good shove. Heavenly Father is entrusting us with his children and I think that is so amazing. We as women have the opportunity to take these sweet spirits and to raise them to be righteous children of God and I am going to do everything in my power to protect them, love them and nurture them as I know Heavenly Father would.

I am so grateful for a husband who is excited about this little addition to our family and for someone who tries to be as involved as he possibly can. He....comes to all of the appointments, feels my tummy when we are just laying around watching t.v. or a movie, talks to her, tells her to stop kicking his mommy in places that don't feel so great, gives into my cravings for McFlurries every once in a while and tells me I look more beautiful while being pregnant than ever. Even though I know that's not true, I appreciate so much that he seems sincere when he tells me that. :) I appreciate that he deals with my sassyness when I don't get enough sleep and I appreciate how he encourages me to get enough sleep, kick my legs up and gives me massages when I need them most. He is the best and I couldn't have asked for a better daddy for my little girl! He is going to be amazing!

We are having a GIRL!!!

Justin and I are expecting a little girl on May 10th! We are so surprised but so so excited! Grandma Joy bought us girl clothes and I got a crib, pack and play, baby names book, boppy breasfeeding pillow and some maternity clothes for christmas. We are looking forward to this our little girl joining our family in just 19 more weeks! As I feel her more and more each day I get more and more excited!

We're Expecting!

We are pleased to announce that Justin and I are expecting our first baby May 10th!

First trimester was full of sickness and lots of naps, but it is all worth the final product! I am 14 weeks along, into my second trimester and loving every moment.

I feel so blessed to be at this point and am so excited to meet this little person inside me. Mommy hood, here I come!

Date Nights!

After we got back from Ohio, Justin and I have made it an effort to start going on weekly dates. So far we have been on a tandem bike ride up Provo Canyon, miniature golfing, out to lunch and dinner, went to a little carnival, ect. I love spending time with Justin and he makes one hot date!

In 18 holes, Justin beat me only by 2 points. This was my first time too.

Justin and I each got a hole in one.

Several times, we would hit the ball in the same pattern and get the same score.

This is when Justin got a par 5.

After golding, we went into Boondocks with twenty tokens and played a bunch of games. This was my favorite.

Justin's score: 41

Holly's score: 48

With the 150 tickets we won, we got money connects and laffy taffy. What a rip off!

This was us on the tandem bike ride. So fun!

We stopped for lunch by the creek to eat our lunchables.

Visit to California!

My Sister and B.F.F. So sad she doesn't live in Utah anymore.

My two favorite babies in the whole entire world. My nephews...Trevor and Henry

The Dodd Squad. Minus Justin and my sister's husband, John.

Henry was sucking on my nose and chin...weird feeling.

I don't know if this is bias, but these are the two cutest kids in the world!

Me and my buddy!

Back Home!

In the beginning of August, we moved back to Provo, Utah to a new apartment. We moved from a one bedroom apartment complex to a two bedroom four-plex. I will admit, it is a step down from what were lived in before, but it is much bigger for a lower price. You can't beat that. Also, we live in a nice quite neighborhood south of BYU and there is a nice park one block away.

The piece on the wall is a masterpiece made by Justin and I. We are quite proud of it!

Miscarriage Due Date

As I was looking at my calender today, I came across a sight I thought I had prepared for: "Due date" in big, red letters.

September 4th, was supposed to be a great day. It was the day I was supposed to meet that little life inside me, but instead, I sit here wiping my tears, while being forced into reality...of our baby who never made it to my arms. Why is it that the things you love most, bring you the greatest sorrow? I will admit that as time goes by, your heart starts to mend, but the memory never fades. I remember it like it was yesterday that I was nagging Justin to read the baby books and trying to suck my stomach in for a pregnancy mug shot.

It saddens me that I am the only one keeping this baby's memory alive. I feel the need to fight for it sometimes - especially today. And it breaks my heart to think that this tiny life came to us for a brief while, only to be forgotten.

Although I don't think about what happened everyday, I still think about it often, especially on a day like today. But I thank Heavenly Father for the ability to heal and to see blessings through tribulations. I am grateful to Know that I will see our child again and we will get the opportunity to raise him or her. Although today is just an ordinary day for the rest of the world, it is significant to me. I will never forget that sweet spirit who lived inside me for three months and I am confident that he or she is looking down on me now, thanking me for not forgetting.

I know God has a bigger plan for us and it is only he who knows what is best for our family. I know we will become parents...Maybe not today, but someday. I don't know exactly what I was supposed to learn from this experience, but I am a stronger woman for it. Through this, I have gained a love for my husband I never knew was possible and grew to know just a fraction of Heavenly Father's love for his children.

Thank you for giving me something to come home to!